Yeah, you might be beautiful…
It’s the deep and dark reaches that I long to know. The exclusivity of the heart that I’m so eager to find, the kinds of things that no one else could possibly know. The idiosyncrasies and “imperfections” are what I’m looking for, not vanity and not accomplishments. You see, I’ve stopped caring about what people will think because the most important thing about a person is not their opinion of you, I would argue it’s truly their opinion of themselves. We spend so much of our time trying to impress people, but I’d rather spend my time impressing upon people their true worth.
I know a girl, I actually adore this girl, and I do because she is so very real. She doesn’t hide behind anything, not even the so called “bad” stuff; I find this irresistible. It’s the dark corners of the heart that I want to find, and I want to help mend. It’s the imperfections, the weakness, the struggles that I’m desperate to find in her because then - I know more than you do about her. Because I know more, her burden becomes mine and that is something so invaluable that gives me all the more meaning in this life.
She’ll know I’m just a man, I’m imperfect, I have issues, and I’m not always the kindest of people and she will know this and it won’t scare me a bit. The point is, I walk around and see the materials or the accomplishments that people allow to breathe definition into who they are and I think to myself, “what a shame.” Jesus defines me, and I stake claim in what he’s given me and there’s nothing that can take that away - absolutely nothing. It’s my turn to give that back, to give something that could never be taken away so long as I deny myself and choose to serve.
My life just changed dramatically within the course of a week, it’s as if God shook me and woke me up; he must’ve because there’s no other explanation. The more I submit my whole life to him, the more he reveals himself to me and directs my steps. He allows me to be me, all the garbage along with it because HE has redeemed me therefore I have nothing to hide. This is my hope for so many people, to begin being who they were intended to be rather than who they feel everyone else wants them or expects them to be.
The world is dying for substance, and very little of this world has what you need. I understand more and more what Proverbs means when it says, “charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting” because I can’t help but walk around seeing so many people and think to myself, “yeah you might be beautiful, but are you real?”
