January 2012
1 post
December 2011
3 posts
End Love.
The love to end all love. Caught in a distant silence from the lowest of lows by a vagrant above. The sky even leans for these questionable things to find mercy and grace in the spaces between. The spaces replace even the bitterest of tastes but can’t escape the saliva you’ve spit in its face. Pretend you can love without him. I’m sick in bed with you running through my head like...
Greatness.
It is better to be a humble servant in the eyes of Christ. Than to be a great man in the eyes of the World.
Two and One.
Two and one connected at The broken Son’s reflection. In the pool of blood erected on a cross we built ourselves. A roman and a jewish man Reflected in a pagan stance. Divided by the lines of judgement Buried underneath. Jerusalem Hallalujah A Savior King our Yahweh God. A birth and death, victorious The world has never Known another King. Jesus. Dirt and Mud. Eyes once were shut til you...
November 2011
5 posts
All Alone, from my new EP...
"Homewrecker" EP now Available
www.noisetrade.com/aaronnewberry
Clocks.
I memorized the lines of your face intertwined with my fingers though bare hold a rhythmic disguise Over dust and the trees care to bend at the knees to fling falls winter leaves said summer time goodbye The dirt on your brow mixed with sawdust you plowed from the plank you were proud grandfather did ring Burned at the core from the sky to floor in a secret you swore to keep me safe at ease
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No Idea.
You’d probably like me better if you had no idea who I am See, once you get to know me you’ll uncover all the bad The inner discord flailing ‘round like a jagged laser beam You’ll see inside the tyrant of the mind that makes up me Displayed my imperfections will send you running for the hills But on the outside looking in you’d think my glass had never spilled Perhaps...
Depressed.
Your stomach rose, your stomach crept. Your stomach filled with air from a theft. The diaphragm all the time unaware. Drew inch after inch of this pitiful air. Not to scare or to hinder. Forced down through the cleft. Thievery mocking in silent shared breath. Binging on H and then 2 on to O Drawn back to the lungs that will handle the blow. Wind circulates through the plates, through the blood....
October 2011
2 posts
Altruism.
Altruistic society. Tapes relayed my depravity. Handsome young man put your teeth to the floor. Dread not, tred lightly you’re a king at the core. Shutter in silence the dark rooms are bare. “Fear not” in a whisper sends chills up the stairs. Breathe O so deeply you rugged old man. Life passed you by while you built it in sand. No man should wander the way that you do. Safety is...
In The Land of Excess.
http://live58.org/thefilm/
In the Western way of living being jobless equals destitution and fallout for some. In many other countries, no infrastructure on which to stand some still cling to hope when it’s nowhere to be seen. For many christians we can find ourselves in between the proverbial “rock and hard place.” In a culture oriented around goals and growth, so the church...
September 2011
1 post
One Life Inside of Another.
Feels like one life inside of another. I embody you. Who embodies me? Sometimes I’d rather just disappear That way none of you’d have to hear Me ringing melodiously The worst news ever Clothed in tattered Broken America The enemy Is lying Clothed in blasphemy Our old enemy Beat us with Apathy Our own Apathy.
August 2011
1 post
The "ME" Generation.
Photographers for days, musicians as far as the eye can see, artists bursting forth from every direction imaginable - enter, the internet. We have become a self-examined generation because we see so much of ourselves, I mean who needs a mirror when you just face timed for 2 hours and spent the majority of the time looking at yourself? It’s easy to recognize the difference from one generation...
June 2011
2 posts
Regarding The Name Change.
Let me be the first to say that, some of the greatest bands ever have had some of the most bizarre names and we’ve not even taken the time to recognize those bands have funky names. Some good examples would be: Thrice, Jimmy Eat World, Foo Fighters, etc. So, what’s in a name? A part of me felt the need to defend the name change, and then I soon realized there is no need because after...
Why Wait?
Some of us are born with this inherent desire to change the world, to be a hero, to impact other people in a way that resonates beyond the quarter you gave the homeless dude yesterday. We often like to imagine it on some grandeur scale where a multitude of people were affected, and that defines the success of our desire to be great. I’m not assuming this is always the case, I’m simply...
May 2011
2 posts
Finding Out.
I find it closing in white, the noise turns silence into plain sight. Just one last renegade for love. I found it searching through air, high above a bridled legionnaire. In the mist of the day we’ve been bristled at bay. Force me to hide and I’ll find my own way. The fog of a breath now riddles the air. You sleep, now alone, in forgotten despair. I would come running with nothing to...
Under The Sun (Sneak Peak)
If I weren’t a sinner then I wouldn’t be a man. If I swore that I was perfect I would rightfully be damned. We’ve got this way about us that leads me to believe. We’re just naive and searching for something instead of creating we’d rather retrieve. Truth wasn’t your idea. I’m just man that’s living under the sun. Just a poor imitation of my king...
April 2011
2 posts
Screw Up.
When’s the last time you saw me screw it up in public? I’m just an ordained miniscule minded defect. Don’t let your useless chatter swallow you hole. Without me watching the rocks cry out in protest. It’s no contest, you’re just a conquest. I will have conquered and have seen you’re gentle reflex. But don’t believe me a jaded beast sings. Living or...
The Crazies.
I see a growing trend in christianity today, and it has a lot to do with “me.” It’s about what I what, what I think, what I desire, my passions and so on. These aren’t evil things by any stretch of the imagination and I like what I like too. I’m not here to point the finger or suggest that it is inherently wrong; not completely. Here’s the thing, the main thing,...
March 2011
2 posts
I love you if...
I love you if you keep me happy and healthy. I love you if you keep me wealthy. I love you if you give me what I want. I love you.
If.
The worst word you can add to 3 words that need no additive. Throw that “if” in there and you’ve thrown a wrench into the machine. Did you hear the vinyl scratch? So, my question is, why are we/I so comfortable saying it to God? I can already...
Lemons.
Sometimes life hands you lemons, sometimes life doesn’t hand you anything at all so what are we to squeeze to get lemonade? The food industry has it down well, preservatives and artificial flavors and BINGO you’ve got yourself a drink AND a meal. Spiritually I’m wrestling with the hand I’ve been dealt, I suppose you could say I feel like I deserve a “break”...
February 2011
1 post
I'm Far Too Irresponsible.
I have got to start spending much more money to keep up with all these trends! Ya, I turned down sewing camp in Middle School and I regret it every day in Nashville. I just don’t do that thing, go shopping for clothes, it’s just never been my thing. I like the few shirts and shoes I have, even if they are falling a part. I prefer character over cost, quality over quantity, and I like...
January 2011
2 posts
Take Love Back.
Everyone wants to love, to be in love, to have love, to know love, etc. and so forth. I’m only writing because as luck would have it, I happen to be one of those people as well. We’re not a dying breed you know, you’re not alone. But I want to clarify, because I catch myself doing it from time to time and then quickly realizing the truth behind what it is I’m actually...
Makes you wonder.
Sometimes the most difficult thing is watching as a girl wrecks herself over some self-absorbed “gentle”man and knowing that you could show her how it feels to be cherished. I think that sometimes, I see the beauty about ten times a day, and I can read the letters they write about wanting to be swept away but it does me no good to even to say, “I could show you.” I’m...
December 2010
2 posts
I Looked For Love In Your Eyes.
This is a poem written by a wife in reply to a blog about written about the struggle of pornography. It’s just a realistic look at how so many men are damaging and destroying their wives and families. It’s reality. I found it to be numbingly true, and hopefully you do too. Thank you to Matt Chandler for Retweeting and directing me to...
HOLD.
Thank you John Piper.
HOLD the promise and the pleasure of Christ firmly in your mind until it pushes the other images out. “Fix your eyes on Jesus” (Hebrews 3:1). Here is where many fail. They give in too soon. They say, “I tried to push it out, and it didn’t work.” I ask, “How long did you try?” How hard did you exert your mind? The mind is a muscle....
November 2010
2 posts
The Internet Is Ruining My Life.
Ok, so maybe that’s a little drastic and perhaps I should take a bit of responsibility for this gross misuse of my time. But I woke up today and my first notion was to get on the internet, and that happens often, but today it scared me because it made me realize I have forgotten my first love. Sure it’s just the internet, and it’s a useful tool when used correctly, but has the...
Q & A oneself
Does the difficult season ever end? Do you ever feel like you’re not being tested? Do you feel like you’re always failing the test? I don’t know. No. Yes.
October 2010
6 posts
Overwhelmed.
Today has been a day like no other, nearly 100 people that we don’t even know gave generously to help fund my bands/ministry full-length record. Words can’t describe the accomplishment of these people, and most importantly the accomplishment of what God did today. The amount of trust and ownership in this project these people have is bewildering in my mind, in the best way possible. I...
Tortuous Soul, You'll Find Yourself Alone.
I’ve seen and heard of enough parental trauma caused to have become utterly disgusted with it. Some of the things these “parents” say to cover up their own insecurities, selfish motives, and downright sadistic ways aren’t even shocking to me anymore but they most certainly are frustrating. The more I’ve read up on parenting in the Bible, a couple of passages stick out...
Yeah, you might be beautiful...
It’s the deep and dark reaches that I long to know. The exclusivity of the heart that I’m so eager to find, the kinds of things that no one else could possibly know. The idiosyncrasies and “imperfections” are what I’m looking for, not vanity and not accomplishments. You see, I’ve stopped caring about what people will think because the most important thing about...
WatchThis is a recent video shot by my friend Nick Dillard to promote our Kickstarter Project for my band Sons of God. Right now you can go download a exclusive acoustic version of “Manipulators” in exchange for a tweet to help spread the word about the fundraiser.
HELP.
You know, often I hear people saying stuff like “thank you for encouraging me” and “I love to read what you write, it really hits home” and to be honest with you all - sometimes I just don’t get it. I’ve always felt I learned very well from my mistakes, and it would be true that I write well from my mistakes. I don’t want to say “the problem...
I can't stand in the line of your fire.
I can’t stand in the line of your fire. If I’m gonna burn forever, I might just stop the denial. I’m not a perfect man, let’s let the healing begin. I can’t rest my weary head when I know I’m not getting in. I’m giving in, to a love that’s sustained. All the brokenness inside of me has turned into shame. I’m giving in, to depravity’s...
September 2010
3 posts
I'm fractured.
“If only you’d wash me, ‘cus I can’t see the stains. My God I’m so scared, ‘cus I’m fractured but I don’t feel the breaks. Have I loved too many daughters, to ever be whole? I’m ashamed that you love me, send grace for the hearts that I stole.”
“For 27 years I’ve been waiting, for 27 years I’ve been keeping my end....
My Eyes Have Been Deceived.
My eyes has been deceived, in the darkest hour of dreams. The beauty of hollow bodies has become a terrible scene. I wake to find you lying with no pulse, I have no cure. Trying to revive you with the hands of death I’m sure. I don’t want to be accountable for the things that I have done. God save me from the sinners path, a man I don’t want to become. Armed with governed bodies...
Midnight Hour.
If I am to be awake into the wee hours of the evening into dawn I should hope it’s to bathe in the presence of Jesus. Rather, many times, this is not the case. I have allowed many things to steal away from what could be precious moments spent with my Saviour. When I say today is the day, I mean right now; I’m talking to myself more than anyone. Jesus can captivate you, you just have to...
August 2010
1 post
Today Is The Day.
In the midst of all that may end, is God in question? What I am facing today more ferociously than ever is the impressing of evil on my heart conjuring lie after lie to get my heart to fear. Don’t read these words as just another Christian rant, what God has put on my heart is the heaviest I’ve ever dealt with and I think it comes with great warning involved. Much of what you may have been taught...
July 2010
3 posts
Tour, Part Un.
The last month of my life has been the most hectic, stressed, difficult and challenging month of my entire life by a long shot; and I wouldn’t trade that time for anything. I’ve grown so much in this short (but what feels like long) period. Last night we played Nashville, TN and leading up to this show I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown. The anxiety I was experiencing was out of...
The Fellowship Of The Unashamed.
I am a part of the fellowship of the Unashamed. I have the Holy Spirit Power. The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I won’t look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, and my future is secure. I am finished and done with low living, sight walking, small...
Son.
I dreamed about you yesterday, when I awoke without any pictures of you by my bedside I began to worry. As my mind and soul flashed back into the present I realized from a dream to reality I was still captivated. I kissed your forehead as you slept and I held you while you gazed into me like I’ve never been seen before. All this from a dream, a moment that suspended my heart from what feels...
June 2010
2 posts
We Are Nothing.
All we are is nothing unless someone has made us something.
Threshold.
I’d prefer you never wonder.
I’d rather you’d always know.
I sewed the seeds from yesterday.
I thought would help you grow.
Seasons captured glimpses into
lives we’d someday lead.
Mistakes considered seasons what
we’d never hope to be.
Preface it with happiness with
gay times running wild.
Emotions craved by femininity
and men would turn them mild.
To some love has...
May 2010
6 posts
Freedom.
We’ve mistaken Cheap Grace for Freedom. Freedom in Christ doesn’t mean do whatever it is you’d like and automatically you are forgiven. I know this may seem like a shocking concept, but what if, God isn’t in control? What if he wanted it to be that way for a season for a reason? He gave us freedom from the law but the christian life is best lived in repentance. Again I...
Revelation.
Reveal
Dry.
How long will I allow my dry time to be unquenchable? To find momentary zeal that lasts hours or days if I’m lucky. No seasons of fruit have a I born, and what feels like ages have past without persevering. I feel as though it may be all that I do to hope with no application, with little follow through. Perhaps I even come off as pessimistic, but I’m overwhelmed with what seems like...
Disappear.
You’re not as important when you disappear. When you’ve been replaced by a pill. The aid of your shoulder and arms is vacant with no appeal. An empty space is the remnant of my soul on your passenger side. Little did I expect to find that you would seek as I did hide. The beaches aren’t as windy in the midwest like they are out there. I keep pretending ocean winds are starting to...
Don't Forget.
I had forgotten the heartache caused by the sin I partake in. The displacement felt as I drowned in this world and fall further from grace. Grace cannot escape, however, lest I give it away. Christ my Jesus, you gave your life for me - your perfect, precious life you gave away knowing I would one day groan within my sin for your mercy. What will it take for my life, our lives to be transformed?...
April 2010
1 post
Renewal of our minds.
Romans 12: 1-2
As I read “Living Water” from Brother Yun I come across some of the most amazing stories and beautiful acts of faith and I yearn to be a part of that. I spoke with a good friend of mine earlier whom I consider to be a spiritual leader in my life, and he told me that as he read through our bio and some of our lyrics he thought to himself that it was so intense; he began...